Gestational Offerings
May 20th, 2007
www.upstreamca.org

Etymology: Latin gestation-, gestatio, 
from gestare to bear, frequentative 
of gerere to bear
1 : the carrying of young in the 
uterus : PREGNANCY
2 : conception & development 
especially in the mind

John 12:23-25 NASU  And Jesus answered them, saying, " The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified.  24 "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth & dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.  25 " He who loves his life loses it, & he who hates his life in this world will keep it to life eternal.

“You have a seed planted in the womb of your spirit beloveds.  It is the Spirit of GOD.  This seed has been growing & growing inside of you for a time.  But soon it will explode to bring forth NEW LIFE to you & to all around you.  

I have been working on the death of your flesh in order to bring about LIFE to your spirit & soul. It is only by dying to your will, your desires, & what self wants, that then I can live & have My being move through you to minister pure Resurrection LIFE to others.  

If there is pride & fears still in your heart, & any other abberation that robs you of your ability to perfectly serve ME, then KNOW that I am in process of killing that in you.

I am RESTORING. But the building which has not first been torn down & cleaned out, cannot be rebuilt & dwelt in.  
I cannot pour new wine into old musty wineskins that will not allow ME to move in you as I WILL.  

Thus I am TEARING DOWN, & plucking out all that cannot withstand what is ahead for those that will ALLOW ME.

I know that this surgery is difficult & I am giving MANY more time, but I have My own time-table which supercedes your time-table or the theories of men who are proud of their own opinions.

This gestational period will surely bring forth a bride that will please her King. That bride will lay her crown down at My feet, not taking any credit for what I do in & through her.  

She will not savagely turn on brothers & sisters who don’t think as she does.  She will not ravage the hearts of the lost, judging & criticizing them.  

She will not defend herself – she will be like ME when I am finished.  She will confront the darkness that is in people or over them. 

She will not diminish their value & worth.  She will love & honor whom I love & honor.  Because I DON’T give up on people.  I don’t get tired of dealing with them.  I know the roots of insecurity in every person. 

I know their history & every thought of their minds & every intention of their hearts & yours.  I always give another chance.  

My judgment is MY LOVE GREATLY PROVOKED TO JEALOUSY !  

I judge the wicked differently then those I know will turn to ME. I am not vengeful, though I take vengeance. 

I am not impatient, though I grow weary.  I am not hateful, though I hate much of what man does. IT IS AS IN THE DAYS OF NOAH, but it will get more & more like it yet.  The fullness of the wickedness that is coming cannot even be imagined.

There will be many that though they are Mine, will be lost in the coming judgments, because it rains on the good & the bad alike.  

Be careful not to judge that something happened just because I was angry at someone. Lest you find yourself in the same position!  Judge NOT lest you be judged!  

I know what is in the hearts of men, & that is NOT YOUR JOB. When you are free from the pride of man, & the lust for authority, & position, then you can be given access to My heart for the lives of others – to know how to speak with kindness & love to even your enemies, when they are torturing you!  

Many offerings will be made in this hour by My beloveds. Many will lay down their lives for the sake of the church & for the sake of the LOST.  

For I have spoken to you of these things beloveds in My Word.  I want you to be ready to face even death in the eye, & be able to be UNAFRAID, knowing that I AM Your DEFENSE, & I AM YOUR HOPE, & I AM YOUR FIRST LOVE.  

I allow nothing in your lives without having already prepared the solution & remedy.  I am doing a DEEP WORK in your hearts & souls.  NOTHING will stop what I want. 

NOTHING can keep you from your destiny in ME. I AM THE SOVREIGN GOD, & there is no other. I alone am in charge of judging wickedness.  

You need to keep your eyes on ME, & SEEK THE LIVING WORD, that your hope & peace cannot be removed.

I am your Pearl of great price!  I am Your Bridegroom & the Lover of Your Soul! I am Your DEFENSE, & the WALL around you.  

I will always love you & do what is best for you.  Will you TRUST ME IN THIS ?  Will you lay down your fears & trust ME ?  Will you lay down your rights ?

  Will you learn to depend on ME alone ?  I have given you friendships & families, but they are not to be your idols. I am yoking many of you together for MY purposes, so you must trust ME also when I remove you from one place & plant you in another.  

I am REARRANGING the furniture in My church.  
I am rearranging many things in your lives.  You must listen & trust ME. I am the only ONE to be worshiped. 

I am increasing the glory as you WORSHIP ME, NO MATTER WHAT YOU GO THROUGH!  WORSHIP! WORSHIP! WORSHIP!”