GOD'S HEART ON HEALING

This first part is a prophetic word spoken through an old friend while we were talking and praying over the phone:

My Children Are Crying
Patricia Helfrich
8/3/95

My children are crying! My children are crying! And there is no one to relieve their pain!
Many of My children are cringing in silence. For there is no one to hear them, who will listen. They've grown used to protecting their pain. And they are afraid to bring it forward. They're afraid of the criticism. Because they're told they should already be healed. I want to heal them, but many are so wounded.

They must have assistance to help them get the healing they need. I am bringing many . You
have just seen the beginning....just the tip. And I will need to give you compassion, My
compassion. Many who are wounded struggle. They yearn for healing, for their deliverance.
They are frustrated because it has taken so long. Many are in churches where the healing is not available. They struggle, and try to be obedient, but they are wasting away. I want to deliver My children. I want to use you and to bring them to you. I will bring My compassion to you. The smell is the festering hurt inside my children. They are wasting away from the hurt.

I've called my lowly, hurt, humble ones to you - to use you to heal them (church). But many
have just been turned away. When they got to the doors, they got salvation, but then told
to shape up.....nothing else....( Jeremiah 6 :14 They have also healed the hurt of My people
slightly, saying " peace, peace!" when there is no peace. )

There is no victory in the church. Many in the church believe they are to blame for not
getting healed. They've been told they're to blame. And many have distanced themselves
from Me because they're SO hurt. {Pat was crying, travailing at this point...feeling the pain of the Lord....so much pain for the hurting} They've been told they should be victorious, but they are so crippled by their hurt, they know they can't measure up. so they have to hide in the shadows. They're not strong enough to fight for themselves, for their needs. And the enemy continues to beat them up with condemnation and guilt.....And this is TOLERATED in My children! I am angry that so many of My lambs that need help and have done all they can do to get free of the enemy are being ignored...! My church is a HOSPITAL...not just a place for social gathering.

The Lord wants church to know many have struggled on a daily basis. They've been cast out. Some hurt, hang on the periphery - but no victory. How can I bring revival if the church has not worked with those they already have? My churches are hungry for converts. They want to see souls saved. But I WANT to see souls set FREE! I WANT a POWERFUL CHURCH! And this can only happen if those who are saved are set FREE - cleaned, healed and delivered.

If I bring people to you and they are not delivered or set free - the church will be sick and it will not be victorious. I am bringing MY POWER and you must learn HOW TO USE IT! I am empowering My church to do the works of JESUS....to set people free! The purpose of My power is to set people free....I will extend it to you...I WILL give it to you! But it MUST be used for that purpose! You ask for more power. You must learn to know how to use it and NOT PUT IT ON HOLD!

{she sensed that many will come to the church...we will be swamped with people, but it will be VERY important to get them delivered and healed. Need to learn to be fish-cleaners, to be dependent on God for our answers and how to minister. The real life in the church is setting them free! Impression that we ask for power but don't know how to use it....}

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(my comments)

Isaiah 1:5b-6 NKJV   The whole head is sick, and the whole heart faints. From the sole of the  foot even to the head, there is no soundness in it. But wounds and bruises and putrefying  sores; They have not been closed or bound up, or soothed with ointment.
We are so quick to want a quick fix to things in our humanness.  It is what we do best to
Pretend -pretend we are ok, or to avoid facing the pain. I was a nurse for 20 years and
one of the things you do first to a wound is to debreed it - to pour on peroxide to debreed
and cleanse it, oxygenation of the tissues kills bacteria.  That can be very painful if deep tissue is involved.

I have seen infected surgical wounds...open up because the stitches were infected...and it is gaping and has to be debreeded daily for a while until the wound is healed from infection and pus...and is starting to fill in with tissue. It hurts to look at the pain of the past.  I know.  I was a victim of terrible abuse as a child and I avoided inner healing due to my fear of having anything to do with new age practices as my mother had gotten involved in that and other forms of witchcraft  but then God gave me a dream and spoke to me in reading a book by Merlin Carothers called "What's on your mind? "  I had read the scripture in that where Noah was told by the Lord that every thought of man's imagination was to do evil, so God was going to destroy the earth. And God spoke to me through that saying " If they can use their minds to do evil  (ie cloning as an example ) Why can't you use yours to get healing? It  is NOT evil to ask the Holy Spirit to come and show a person where the root of their suffering is, or to imagine Jesus in that situation, and ask Him what He would have done, if He’d been allowed to at the time.

True inner healing is under the Holy Spirit's unction and direction, and not for the person doing the assisting to control. It is ALLOWING God to come in and do surgery on our hearts - to expose the pain, the hurts, the anger and places that sometimes we have not even remembered. I am 54 and didn't start inner healing till maybe 6 years ago, so I had a lot of things I have forgotten, and God is still bringing up more. HE IS FAITHFUL to do it a little at a time, or however He sees fit for the person's own personality.  Some go through slower, and some are more open and willing, and less vulnerable, and it goes quickly.  Some have more rebellion fostered by old hurts, and it takes much patience.  God is the most PATIENT and KIND person I know.  He is always continuing to love us and have patience knowing all the hurts we have gone through, but the memories need to be healed to close the door on the demons that feed on that pain and the strongholds connected with them.

He is not there with a bull-whip going, “STRAIGHTEN UP JACK! or you're outta
here!”  That voice I do know.  It is the voice of the harsh taskmaster RELIGION! It comes with condemnation, guilt, impatience  and intimidation and is NOT God, though it tries to sound like Him.  In ALL God's dealings with me, He has been so gentle, and patient.  It is astounding.  It is at times like that, you know what real love is so I implore you with all the words that have been on the internet and in our churches about getting healed up, to get in HIS PRESENCE.  That is the place of healing.TRUST GOD to do the very best for you and to not leave a stone unturned, or a door of your heart locked and shut.  He is still doing it in me and I pray will continue till there is more of Him in me, and less of me.
Love in Christ,  Priscilla Van Sutphin   
Upstream Ministries  www.upstreamca.org

THE LOVE STARVED 1996
Priscilla Van Sutphin
[Prophetic word-teaching]

"I sit and I wait. I sit and I wait to see the heart that will turn to Me, the heart that will
minister to me! I've said, ' He that waits upon the Lord shall renew their strength, They
shall mount up with wings like eagles. They shall run and not be weary. They shall walk and
not faint.' Isaiah 40:31 NKJ

The anointing brings strength for service as well as power gifting. There is such an
impulsive nature to the flesh. It seeks it's own desires. It does not want to wait. It gets
bored. It wants what it wants now, when it wants it. It is self-dependent. The spirit of man
must wait on the Lord in order to depend on Him.

In order for the spirit to rule over the flesh, the will (soul) must be free of demonic
bondages. If the soul is unhealed in an area; there can be no victory over the flesh in that
area affected.

Luke 11:34-36 ' The lamp of the body is the eye. Therefore, when your eye is good, your
whole body also is full of light But when your eye is bad, your body also is full of darkness. Therefore, take heed that the light which is in you is not darkness. If then your whole body is full of light, having no part dark, the whole body will be full of light, as when the bright shining of a lamp gives you light.'

All areas must receive nurturing to be functioning normally. The body must have food. The
spirit must have 'spirit' food, and the soul of man must also have food (the Word). The mind (soul realm) must also see and understand TRUTH. The will must yield to the spirit of man (receive truth) and the emotions can defeat the will if they are un-nurtured in love.

So many today are love-starved. They have received all of the wrong kinds of love;
conditional types, like perfectionism, or cold-love, rejection, or abuse, or NONE....as in
neglect; absence of love. Neglect is a REFUSED love as much as rejection and abuse.
Without love, men or women are emotionally starved which can lead to death of all kinds
(spiritual, emotional, physical).

This is why Ecclesiastes says " Love is as strong as death".

Touch is nurturing to the flesh, but also to the emotions and intellect. Without enough of it,
we are dysfunctional. That's why even pets can provide love that heals our emotions- meets
the needs of our soul realm.

Love is gentle. Love is kind. Love is not proud or puffed up. It does not compete with
another. Love rejoices in another’s victories, joys and accomplishments. LOVE conquers all.
No man can live without a heart. The heart is central to the body. It brings nourishment to
all parts of the body, to every cell via the cardiovascular system. Feed the body the right foods and it grows and is sustained with life. In order for the spirit and soul to receive life it must receive proper nourishment as well.

It must receive the manifest love of GOD, and the Word of God to nurture the soul, and it is important for all parts to receive physical nurturing as well. The church and the world have been devastated by wars, warring of the flesh, the spirit and the body. I come to bring soul peace, as you learn to trust in ME and get set free and healed, there is more and more peace of spirit and soul which leads to peace of body as well. ' My food is to do the will of Him who sent Me' I said. Likewise as you seek my FACE - you get illumination and direction, and as you obey....your soul can find peace."

This was from our loving Abba. We are about to be challenged in our churches and on our streets as we go out, with the outcasts, the unlovely, the jeered at, and the many who are love starved. We must act in love....not in religious judging of appearances.

Many whom we will be challenged to love will be the unloveable. Those whose habits, and character are unloveable. But as we minister the love of JESUS through our arms outstretched...God will pour into us HIS COMPASSION AND LOVE if we ask. The youth who will be among the most of whom we minister to. will know if we are judging, or disgusted with them. They are very astute and sensitive these days. And there is so much rejection on people that it will fully stretch our souls to reach out to them. Because rejected people reject back and don't receive well.

If we don't feel up to the challenge, then maybe there is some area in our own souls that needs healing. so that we can become more Christ-like in our emotions and character. Abba is faithful to answer when we cry out for healing and I feel His urgency, ...more like the heavy-hand of the Lord to get our houses in order for the great revival coming. May His grace be on you to make you to be and do all HE wants you to be and do.


The Wall of Pretense
Priscilla Van Sutphin
8/2/98

It occurred to me this morning that the reason God has not allowed me to have this format,
to share until now is that now is the time for them to be shared due to the nature of
conviction in them.

Several years ago the Lord told me to lie on my side like Ezekiel for 7 days and I was to
read through Ezekiel and do nothing else except eat and relieve myself and wash, and pray.
It was one of the hardest things to do in my walk with the Lord. Even with having chronic
fatigue syndrome, it was hard. In that time the Lord showed me so much of the corruption
in the church and in the pulpit.  He said that pastors and leaders were involved in so much sexual sin, perversion, and greed, that it was a stench. They were adulterous, with women, with men and with children !! All of this has been being uncovered. Later on I had this dream about doing work for the church denomination I was involved in. In the dream, I was hired as a secretary, and I was being trained at a desk.

On the desk were clay shingles for roofing and I was to count them. They cost $12.00 each. I was to count them for each church that I was assigned to in the denomination. At lunch time, I was taken down to the basement where the bathrooms were and I went into the women's bathroom and in there was a HUGE wall with all kinds of MAKEUP. And the supervisor said to me, that I could take as much as I wanted. But I was shy to do so, but took some anyway and said I've been on welfare, so we don't have much money for make-up. The wall of makeup was from floor to ceiling. ( The poor in spirit don't need pretense)

That week 2 friends in different cities in the country reported things to me about this
particular church in their area which confirmed that the Lord was dealing with PRETENSE
in His church. In the dream, make-up stands for pretense.
The hard clay shingles are important in California to protect our homes from FIRE. I'm
sure, although I don't know the actual cost that they are expensive.

The Lord revealed that the shingles represented the COVERING of the Lord - the secure
protection. In most of the churches, there were not enough shingles to even cover a portion
of the roof. The number twelve is the number of APOSTOLIC government. In order for the church to have this covering, the wall of pretense has to come down , and the Lord has told me now that the expense of the tiles is the COST we must pay to have this
anointing.(apostolic) It will cost us EVERYTHING. (Like Kathryn Kuhlman said about her own ministry.)

That is why His apostles and prophets have been going through a stripping
process. This has been for DEATH to SELF- Something the church has lost it's desire to
teach, in many places. And in others, Pastors have taught the sheep to give everything but
they themselves have not been willing to pay the price. The church of Jesus Christ is built
on the blood of the apostles and prophets. And there is much spiritual blood that has been
shed - by Jezebel and witchcraft in the church, trying to control the prophets from
speaking, even trying to kill them, by praying witchcraft prayers against us
There is much to answer for, and yet God in HIS MERCY is coming for the harlot BRIDE and He will make her spotless and beautiful despite her adulteries. I'm so privileged to get to know others here on the website who have gone through and are coming forth as
gold.....(smile).